Ever since I married you, life has become roller coaster ride. I married you with the thought that ours will be different and special couple. May be the thought of being different was too attached with my personal liking of adorning 'different' things. Well ! Now recently after good 12 years of marriage, I realised that we are also a regular couple. We also have differences on regular issues, and debate on trivial problems. We were trying to be different from other couples but it is in this effort we were losing our spontaneity. The only thing which is there till now is Love. But after few years love takes new definition of 'Necessity'.
We now talk only about problems of the house without coming to conclusion of deciding on its solution. We are intimate when it is required, that too without any candle lights or beach walks. :) We argue on issues related to kids, finances, career and investment. It was my mistake I shared my heart out to you, specially about your parents and family. Now I understand there is no one on this earth to confine with. People's memories are too short to remember the problems and people includes you also my husband. I have understood that if I want to write a poem I should not share it with any body, and should just write it.
Actions speaks louder than words. :)
What hurts me most is I never wanted to be a regular daughter in law. I always wished for myself a mother in law with whom I can relate to and be friends with. But that could not happen and it was not meant to happen as when I chose you as my life partner. Alas ! It took me about 10 years to understand that we don't get everything we wish for ourselves. But it's hard for me to believe that you also fall in the circle of a customary being.
You give me space to work as per my wish, you allow me to drink in public and wear what ever I want to, and you love me. You are not into domestic violence, neither you are a drunkard nor a womaniser. I have so much of gratitude towards you for this. But something is still missing.
Let's not try to be different and be regular. It's always very difficult to sail against the tide. And I am specifically tired of doing so.
Let's be bona fide in real sense. I should be a dominating wife taking care of house, work, finances, bills and kids. And you being a customary partner who earns money for the house and hide your female friends from wife. :) Our friends should no longer give our examples of best couple. We should not be in limelight and be formal. Just like any other couple.
And yes let's keep searching for the'Missing' in our lives. :)